here are some random pics :)

This is me and my cousin Joe Jer...She and her friend were the winners of Amazing Race Asia 1 :) We were at my other cousin's wedding dinner...

This is my younger cousin, Jowee...
when we were much younger, i was very close to her:)

This is Su Yin, one of my roommate's from the mpyo tour :)

LOL...MPYO kaki...
from left, kah yan, jebat, dylan, eliza, jia rong, me, and nami

The flooded road which we have to pass thru during our year-end MPYO national tour... 

this was taken after the MPYO concert at the end of the tour...
we ended the tour in KL...
Emmy and I were in front...
the guys looked like bodyguards! haha...ok la, except karl...he looked to happy...
from left (behind): karl, jan, daniel, darren, brian

The classic 'See No Evil' (Selene), 'Say No Evil' (Dhina),
'Hear No Evil' (me)...
Sha and Anas with shocked faces...lol...
miss them! it's been a looong time since we went out together :(

Neways, that's all for now :)
wait for more next time ;)

the switchfoot concert was awesome! :)

interesting experience!hehe...we reached kl convention centre at about 6 sumthing...managed to squeeze thru and get to where rach, marilyn, sheryl, etc. were standing...
it was quite funny la, cuz we were like running to the LRT station...running to KLCC...cuz we thought we were late (doors supposedly open at 6pm)...
so yea, when all 10 of us were running, it seemed as tho we were chased by someone (got weird stares from ppl..heh) or we were chasing someone...haha

neways, didn't really have dinner...and was actually quite tired from running...and standing so much...

but, the switchfoot was great! they were good performers and at the end of the day, it wasn't just a rock concert...but it was a rock concert with meaning la...cuz the songs they sang had depth in it...and at the end the lead singer was like talking about life...and how it meant more than material things, possesions, etc...that there was just a greater meaning to it! :) then he sang my fav song...hehe...gone! lol

the only minor setback was that i was quite short...hehe...and in the beginning there was this tall dude standing in front of me...and the annoying thing was he kept pushing back, and was being really inconsiderate...but it was a good thing he moved to the front after that...

we were standing quite near the stage...towards the corner...near the huge speakers...haha...and as a result, i was quite deaf after the concert...especially after having ppl around me screaming in my ears! sorta lost my voice too...heh... :)

neways, when ppl heard i was going for the concert, they had funny reactions...haha...one even said he would pay RM123 just to watch us (me, emmy, belle...) 'concert-virgins' at the concert...heh...
but yea, this would probably be the only rock concert i will go in a long long time...cuz it's switchfoot! and also cuz i went with a group of ppl (mostly girls..heh) i was really comfortable with la...

so all in all, it was a well spent RM123 ;)

I played for a funeral service on sunday evening...
it was the funeral of a 35 year old christian man...
usually, i've been to funerals of old ppl...but never to one this young i think

neways, i think he died in an accident...not sure tho...
and the thing is, we all know and have heard it so many times...
                                "life is short"
                    "life is fragile"
but it was that day that i was reminded again...that life is short and fragile...

and i felt sad...cuz i saw this man's family just grieving over his death...his mother especially and his sisters were crying even at the start of the service...it's just sad to see them like that...

anyways, most of his family weren't Christians...but praise God that they accepted Jesus as their Lord after the sermon...and it was amazing, how a 'lost' life here on earth can result in 3-4 new lives added into the kingdom of God :)

when this man's brother-in-law read his eulogy, he said one thing that struck me...
"Let's not remember Edwin (the deceased) for how he died, but the life that he lived"
i want to be remembered next time for the life that i've lived...

Gone, like yeterday is gone,
Like history is gone,
The world keeps spinning on,
Your going going gone,
Like summer break is gone,
Like saturday is gone
Just try to prove me wrong
You pretend like your immortal your immortal

We are not infinite
We are not permanent
Nothing is immediate
We're so confident
In our accomplishments
Look at our decadence

Gone, like Frank Sinatra
Like Elvis and his mom
Like AL Pacino's cash nothing lasts in this life
My highschool dreams are gone
My childhood sweets are gone
Life is a day that doesn't last for long

(Gone by Switchfoot)

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neways, today i had korean dinner with my family, tab's family and sheryl :)
what turned out to be a casual korean dinner just to satisfy my mom's desire to eat korean food became a very good time of fellowship over good food *satisfied smile*

tab, i'm glad ur parents came along :) i know my parents enjoyed themselves..hehe..

okies...it's late...gonna go to bed now...
on a random note, my poor dog is infested with ticks! lots and lots of them...and these ticks are infesting my porch and walls...and the cracks in the walls...don't like :S

This post is dedicated to all you 'silent blog readers'...and a certain dude who was from class 5A, who dissed my blog so much one sunday afternoon (you know who you are) ...and to all you ppl who have been buggin me to update...here goes

WHY I DO NOT BLOG OFTEN:

1. Don't see a need to
2. Don't have all the time in the world to sit in front of my pc and post my daily/weekly/monthly activities regularly
3. Don't even come online often!
4. Don't have the will to do it cuz not important

so yea...that's answers all your questions about me not updating much...

Neways,
my life has been pretty mundane...and since my blog is already boring, i will not further elaborate...heh

on a random note, i'm going for the switchfoot concert! haha...
this will be my first real concert...
tab called and asked me if i wanted to go...quite alot of girls are going :)
belle, emmy, rach, marilyn...etc..
so yea, gonna experience my first live concert ;)

i really thank God for my student's mom, aunty catherine...cuz she's been a great blessing to me...she seems like a really strict and no-nonsense person...but she's extremely nice and generous...she has been blessing me with christmas bonuses and big CNY angpows! and it greatly encourages me la...not so much of the money...but the thought of her giving me something extra :)
plus, she even prayed with me for my uni applications and stuff...

neways, gtg sleep now...it's very late and i had a long day...
will have another long day tmw...got a meeting in dp...i dread meetings... :(
and i sometimes ppl will stop asking me to do stuff...cuz i can't anymore...i'm not burned out...but neither am i totally fine...and i do not want to be overwhelmed with things to do again...

today, i for a moment, i just felt like running away from home, from things i'm familiar with, from friends, church...from everything la...to a place where i can just be really alone...far, far away from all these things...
(no, nothing big happened...)

but i can't...

my only secret place is in God...

goodnite everyone...

(it may be another month till i blog...heh)

i'm feeling REAL relieved right now :) finally the busy-ness has passed...and i can actually breathe properly!

I just finished my violin exam today...praise God, it went quite well...the examiner was super nice and friendly :) and because of that, i wasn't nervous or freaking out during the exam..heh
a big THANK YOU to all who have wished me and prayed for me, not to mention encourage me :)

neways, let's rewind slightly...shall we? :)
if u'r wondering why i haven't been updating, well...it's mostly because i was busy (what's new?!haha) and i was away on MPYO tour :)

the tour was really a cool experience...wasn't exactly excited about it, neither was i dreading it...was just ok with it...
but i had a good amount of fun and learning experience from the camp and was basically looking forward to each day...though it was tiring and we were travelling so much (got abit of motion sickness in the bus summore)...

the concert in penang was alright...i thought it was quite good, but apparently we were quite messy...hehe...

to date, i think the ipoh concert was the best :) johor, the audience looked bored... was expecting more from the johor audience la...

in kuantan, i enjoyed the place...the auditorium was packed! 900 ppl came...and it was our worst concert! lol...

back to kl, i was really tired...didnt go home...cuz we reached at 3pm, rehearsal started at 6.30pm....but anyways, the kl concert was just great la...
we didn't start off all that well...but we progressively got better...the london symphony was really good :)

and we had our zone party on saturday...went tracting in the morning, but got lost looking for taman kinrara...haha...it wasn't that difficult in the end! by the time we started tracting, it was 12.45pm...lol...and we were suppose to start waay earlier than that...
anyway, we didn't manage to cover the whole area cuz we ran out of tracks -_-"
heh

the zone party went really well! :) all of them did very well with organising, planning and stuff :) it was a great party not because of the food, the fun, the games, etc (don't get me wrong, those were great too!), but it was great because everyone fellowshipped, shared testimonies, and there was this great sense of unity among the omegans :) the party wasnt a shallow one...it was one with meaning...n i'm soo proud of them!

oh, n i went shopping today...proper one, after dunno how long! lol...
neways, it's 1.42am now...heh...going off to sleep now :)

haha...mind-blast is the term that tab unintentionally used for brain-storm
quite funny!

today we had a meeting in DP for the youth leaders to discuss, set what we want to see in youth, and evaluate where we are at the current point...

i think it was very neccesary and i'm glad we did it. indeed we have grown compared to where we were before, but somehow we're stuck in this place and it seems like we can't go any further...i pray that after this planning session, all of us will take the initiative to improve ourselves as leaders, so that we can move on and move higher to where God wants to bring our youth group...because it is a collective effort and one that cannot be carried out if we are not united together...

anyways, concert was yesterday night...a sincere THANK YOU for those who have been praying, supporting, and encouraging me :)
how did it go? haha...honestly, not as well as i wanted it to be...i messed up certain parts...especially the last...
basically cuz i was tired and worn out ade...my whole programme was about 40mins...and i didn't eat dinner..heh...

but yea, praise God that overall it went well...praise God that ppl came! haha... we were expecting 20ppl only...but i think about 40 ppl turned up ;)
i am especially blessed by the people who came and watch (and paid rm30!! just for it), and these people are not even into classical music...but they came all the same to support me :) people like adrian and jen, nicole and her bro, brian, my rombongan of students, aunty vivian (raymond's mom), and my mom's manager! lol...

i'm feeling not so stressed anymore...cuz the concert's done with...but still busy with alot of things...there's so many things i have to do, and so many things i want to do...i need to prioritize! :s

neways, if i don't blog anymore before monday,

ALL THE BEST TO ALL YOU SPM STUDENTS :)
keep going, let God be your strength and guide through your whole exam period...
praying for you!

have been very busy and stressed...so many things to do...violin exam nearing...concert's next week!

speaking of concert, i'll be playing for a concert on the 7th nov...8pm in SS2...Admission fee is RM30...Featuring me on violin (will be playign my exam pieces) and Wong Shuenda  on piano...he's an excellent pianist...

Call me/text me if you're interested ya?;)

neways, gtg sleep now...i actually typed more...but accidentally cancelled everything :( so yea...heh

i'm sorry if i haven't be in touch with many of you...sigh...trying my best to juggle everything...more importantly, i was reminded today that the Joy of the Lord is my strength :)

Ever struggled with self-worth or low self-esteem?
i have...big time...
there are still times where my insecurities get above me...
but as i was preparing for the lesson to teach in my CG on sat, i was reminded once again that God loves me the way i am...

and there's reli no point in trying to please others, or compare myself with ppl who are 'better' than me, cuz i am unique and special...i'm a beautiful creation (psalms 139:14)

tab introduced this song to me :) by scott kripayne...it's a really feel-good song, makes u feel happier when u hear it...and the lyrics are very good as well...

so yea, i'm not cool...but i don't care ;) cuz i know Someone up there loves me anyway...and He loves you just as u are too :)

Some people tell me that I look kind of funny
My nose is red and the braces didn't work at all
They say the clothes I wear are all out of fashion
I don't fit in and should be shopping at a different mall
I studied classical piano when I could've been playing guitar
I used to drive an El Camino and I'm not even sure it's a car

(chorus)
I'm not cool but that's okay
My God loves me anyway
I'm not cool but that's alright
I'm still precious in His sight
I'm not cool but I don't care
How I'm supposed to do my hair
I'm not cool but that's okay
My God loves me anyway

It doesn't matter if I know all the lingo
He dosen't mind if I'm not hanging with a certain crowd
Some people still believe in building image
But I am fine and that's a worry I can do without
I used to wish I was athletic but football was never my game
I met some friends in mathematics but no one can spell my last name

chorus

He says that I am one of a kind
And I don't have to try to be somebody else
He believes in me and says I'm free to be myself
I can be myself

Yups, nice new fresh look :)

and michelle t, my blog haven't karat yet ;) hehe

neways, just wanna post some updates...i have been busy these few weeks...extra busy, that is...and i bet there are some ppl who are wondering what's goin on in my life :)

the MPYO concert went really well :) praise God for that....the Sat nite performance was the best...i guess cuz by Sun afternoon, everyone was tired...anyways, the atmostphere was different also la...Sat nite was more posh and elegant...Sun was more relaxed and laid back :) i saw a few ppl on sun afternoon...marc cheeng and his family..aunty faith and her husband, and kester low...

then the weekend after that, there was the MYOF Competition...which by God's grace (seriously) i won 2nd place :)
i wasn't really worried about it until quite last minute..hehe..cuz u see, the piece that i was playing was an unaccompanied violin solo (normally violinists have piano accompanists)...and i realised how exposed that would make me sound!
and to top that up, i was the first to play!

so yea, in my category (violin diploma) there were only 5 ppl...and at first i was pressured to at least win something...had quite high expectations of myself...but then a friend reminded me about keeping Jesus as my centre and whatever it is, however i fared in the competition, as long as i did it for Jesus, that's all that matters :)

prayed really hard before playing...hard was pumping like crazy! haha...
neways, the whole piece was a blur to me...i knew i started off quite bumpily :s thought i played quite badly...didn't sustain notes well, went off, didn't really keep tempo...

and to my surprise, i won 2nd place...praise God! :)

Now, last week i was away in genting from thurs to sat...i was asked to play for the Anugerah Era...

It was a great experience for me...and i really thank God for His favour...cuz He provided this opportunity for me :) and because of this, i'm able to fulfill my faith promise plus leap in faith, plus give my dad some money :)

which btw, i want to say how much i love my dad...he is sooo sacrificial! well, he basically drove me up to genting on thurs....waited there with my mom till late at nite...and drove me back down...cuz on fri morning i had violin class...then he drove me back to genting on fri afternoon...and picked me up on sat nite...where we reached home at 2am cuz the awards show ended late...he's an amazing dad! :)

neways, that's about it...those were my crazy and busy weeks...the weeks to come are not so hectic...still have to do replacments cuz i missed quite a number of classes...but yea, i'm reminded that God is my strength and my refuge and that He's by me through it all!

Belle, all the best for your trials! *HUG*

going to the camp today...guess where??
haha...it's just in ampang...flamingo hotel! lol...

but anyways, it'll definitely be better than the previous two accomodations we stayed in...i'm not too psyched up about this camp...

havent even packed yet...actually quite tired still...physically...need more rest la..
but all the same, reality hasn't sunk in yet that we'll be performing already this sat and sun...

which incidentally is the same day as the conference...sigh...
but anyhows, i'll be praying hard...have been encouraged recently and God has been speaking to me :) so yea, i'm better...just need to rest...

neways, gotta go now...take care evryone :)